I'm in one of my "Blue" periods. VERY LONG story and I'm tired of even thinking about it. Kari is also having a tough time of it with the Fibro and a pulled muscle in her back.
She called me to tell me that she renewed her tanning subscription and my first reaction was to chew her out for wasting money. But I caught myself as I have managed to do for almost 8 years. My friend said something in passing the other day and it had reminded me of some very bad feelings I had had when I was married to Connie. A lot of very bad and ugly things were said between us. BUT...Once they were said they could never be taken back.
I have made an extra effort to NOT say mean things to Kari. She is my sunshine. I cannot even begin to imagine what my life would be like without her. Even on the very worst day with Kari it is better then the best day with Connie during the last 15 years of our marriage.
Don't get me wrong...when Connie and I were young it seemed like everything wrong could be solved with sex. But after we grew older, other things became more important... Like not being kind to each other...and Connie had a hard time being kind to me and I to her...I think we said too many bad things through the years to let kindness reign supreme.
So yesterday when Kari annoyed me, I swallowed my annoyance and I let it slide. By the time I got home the annoyance had passed and our mutual kindness and love for each other was the order of the day.
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